Frustrated with my Chronic Fatigue

So today brings me some frustration as I sit here completely exhausted. Why? Because I have chronic fatigue that isn't being treated appropriately. Now I know the next question some of you are asking is "well Gerri, why aren't you treating this condition?" And I do have an answer.....it's a financial reason. You see, my insurance is one that doesn't cover anything until the deductible is met - so that means we pay 100% out of pocket until then - the deductible is $3000 per person.....the sleep study I need to take is right around $3000. So I face a huge medical bill to treat this OR wait it out until we meet the deductible over the course of this year....it's hard to think of having a huge medical bill arrive on our doorstep but on the flip side it's hard to continue on with this chronic illness without the treatment needed.

I had mentioned previously that the sleep apnea treatment is using a machine at night but in order to get to that point I need the sleep study. So I feel stuck between a rock and a hard spot - deal with my chronic fatigue as I always have or just get the sleep study and deal with the bill later. Being that I still have bills from meeting our deductible last year it's hard to add to those bills....I just have to decide which is harder - dealing with being exhausted all the time or dealing with the medical bills.

I think I just answered my own question with the last statement. I know as soon as I get the right treatment for my fatigue issues I will feel like a new person and have more energy to do the things I NEED to do and become an active member of this family and life again.

It's been over 2 mo now that I've been eating better, juicing and making healthy choices for what I put into my body and the fatigue is not getting better or worse - it's just there, regular and steady - something I deal with as best I can! I go to bed at night by 9 or 10pm the latest and sleep until 6:30am - so it's not lack of sleep - it's lack of GOOD RESTFUL SLEEP. Which is because of the sleep apnea. It's a really hard disorder to explain and understand, but living with it I can tell you it's very difficult to live life when so tired all the time.

I guess I'll have to bite the bullet and just get it done - once on my way to better/refreshing sleep I'm sure everything else will work out. No sense in treating part of my health issues if the other half isn't being addressed and treated.

That's it for today - just had to work out my frustration which in the end has brought me to the answer of what I need to do ...... I hope you are all well!