I had my thyroid ultrasound which turned into another appointment for a biopsy to check the newest growth. All came back benign so that was good news. Bad news is I have a new growth - I think that makes 5 or 6 now.
I also had my tooth looked at and fixed. Turned out I had significant decay which broke the tooth and needed a root canal.....had that done and I actually go back tomorrow to get the permanent crown placed. Other than costing me a small fortune, that tooth will finally be fixed. I'm in need of 3 other crown replacements which need to get done soon - not sure how fast it will take my money tree to sprout, been waiting a while for that! HA HA
I'm currently waiting on a call from a surgeon to discuss removing my thyroid - I'll have a consult with him and see what he says about it. In my opinion, if I'm going to continue to grow nodules on it and go through these biopsies, just take the sucker out! The biopsies are pretty painful and I can do without another of those! You know it's bad when the Dr who does the biopsy genuinely feels sorry for you that you have had to have so many done.....the nurses and Dr kept saying how sorry they were that I had to have another.
On a happy note, we went on a Western Caribbean cruise which was FABULOUS!! A much needed week away from technology and life at home....we went to Jamaica, Grand Cayman and Cozumel - it was just perfect and we all had an amazing time.
My main inspiration to write tonight (aside from the above updates) comes from my lack of "restful sleep" over the past several, oh I don't know........decades I would say! It sucks!
My typical time to go to bed is usually around 8pm and I get up at 5:30 am - plenty of "sleep" but I wake up exhausted - tired all day, every single day. I'm over it!
I've been searching out "diets" to help with the exhaustion, only to realize that I already eat the "right" foods and combinations that are suppose to help give someone "energy". So why am I not feeling alive? I just had my birthday, and really, I'm not that old but good lord do I feel much older!
I swear I go through my days sluggishly, yawning and in general malaise. People always tell me how tired I look - the thought that goes through my head is "gee thanks asshat you look great today too!" Why do people feel the need to tell you that you look tired - trust me I already know and don't need anyone pointing it out for me!
I have my "good" days but the "bad" definitely are outweighing the good. Other than being absolutely exhausted I feel generally fine. My body doesn't ache like it use to constantly. Of course I have my days for that too but overall I do believe my main issue right now is the lack of energy which leads to a lack of motivation to do anything - even going to the store seems like such a huge monumental feat these days.
I am interested in hearing from anyone out there who has dealt with this kind of fatigue for a lengthy amount of time and what you do to combat it. I'm really at my witts end and am looking to anyone out there who might have some answers or a direction to lead me in.
In the past I took Adderall for the fatigue - sure it gave me energy it's an amphetimine! I am almost to the point of asking my Dr to put me back on it but really don't want to go that route if I don't have to. Not only is it expensive to the tune of close to $200 a month it's just not a good thing to be on day after day. So please HELP! I'm begging!
Until next time....TO YOUR HEALTH!
